Friday, July 29, 2011

Welcome Aboard!

06:00 AM, NAIA Terminal 3
All up and I’m flying. It’s been a not-so-good night. Still in the process of that so called ‘transformation’. Thanks to my accountability partner for helping me out - guiding me every step of the way. But now, the battle is within me, I have to fight on my own, challenge myself to be diligent and to be fully obedient to Him.

I have all the weapons; I have all the resources… all I have to do is to move - to keep moving and eventually to keep growing. Each step may not be easy, the familiar things I used to do before may not be as easy to do now: there are lapses. It’s kinda hard to go back in that stage where I’m at my highest – but then again, it’s not too late. There is still hope – for my hope is in the name of the Lord.

I just need to have that mindset – set a goal. I need to fully surrender; letting go of my old self and everything that can deter me in serving Him. Where do I begin? That is the question.

I think I need to have a one-on-one session with Him. Shout out everything I have in mind: my fears, frustrations, ALL my desires. And yeah, bow down in humbleness, cry out in prayer and ask for repentance.

HE is a LOVING God, a wonderful Father and I know He loves me so much. More than enough to died for me…

** I’m still at the airport now, bound for Cebu. I couldn’t help but THANK GOD with all my heart for his faithfulness *teary eyes* and now I am silently singing…

Lord I come to You, let my heart be changed renew…
Lord I come to know, the weaknesses I’ve seen in me…

Wednesday, July 27, 2011



I never thought that this day will give me so much realization about things/words I've been wanting to hear. I only planned for a movie night with a friend - that's all. But the Lord is moving in so many ways I cannot even see or imagine and indeed I can attest that He is STILL in control.

Tonight, I invited my friend Aris to watch Captain America at SM Megamall. I didn't expect that this night will be a night of truth, and by saying truth it is always true to its meaning... and yeah the TRUTH HURTS.

I thank the Lord for his life. For helping me realize so much stuffs that's been hindering me to move forward. I am rebuked, I am convicted, I AM GUILTY. What else can I say?

I realized I cannot do this alone... happiness doesn't depend on people nor material things (it will never be). True happiness is having God in my life. Having Him as my sole source of strength and keeping Him alive.

I have failed, I have sinned, I have neglected Him in so many ways... But why is He still here holding me tightly? The reason is He loves me so much. He is a loving God, His love is unfading. I might have changed but He will never change. That's how good He is.

And what is the next step? I need to fully let go of all the things that's hindering me to grow in His love (whether it is a person or things, i need to let go... FULLY LET GO, no holding back.

I pray for a life that is pleasing to God. I pray for a life that will glorify God. And I pray that you will join me in my prayers.

Letting Go - Jeremy Camp (Lyrics)

Monday, July 25, 2011

if it’s with the right person...

if it’s with the right person,

it starts with truth. it admits both their hurts and their mistakes.

if it’s with the right person,

it forgives. it doesn’t want to dwell in hurtful present.

it wants to move on. together.

if it’s with the right person,

it comforts. like her head was made perfectly to fit his shoulder.

if it’s with the right person,

it accepts. like an embrace that lasts forever, because neither wants to let go.

if it’s with the right person,

it holds on. in prayer. hoping that God would hold on too.

if it’s with the right person,

it glorifies Love. and tries to keep Him in the center.

if it’s with the right person,

it wants to persevere. because you know that it might not, but you want it to. and you pray it will.

if it’s with the right person,

it ends rejoicing with the truth. hoping that it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

because Love never fails. Never.

Thursday, July 21, 2011


(1) FINE: This is the word women use to end an argument when she knows she is RIGHT & YOU need to SHUT UP.

(2) NOTHING: means SOMETHING & you need to be worried.

(3) GO AHEAD: this is a dare, not permission, DO NOT DO IT.

(4) WHATEVER: A woman's way of saying SCREW YOU.

(5) THAT'S OK: She is thinking long & hard on HOW & WHEN you will pay for your mistake.